Friday, January 30, 2009

Enlightenment, liberalism, democracy, slavery and racism

I have a tad bit of frustration when learning about the contradictions within American ideology: Enlightenment, classical liberalism, democracy, slavery and racism. I am interested in anyone with some thought about it and it would great to hear from people who are at least quasi-versed in the terms above. Regardless, I wanted to spark discussion.
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Emancipation in the United States is often romanticized as the political and social release of enslaved peoples of African descent. It’s a narrative that often depicts Blacks casting down their bags of cotton, tossing down their shovels and heading towards a somewhat ambiguous space called “freedom” somewhere in the northern half of the United States. However, often times this narrative is not transmitted onto the lives of displaced Africans in the West Indies. In addition, the idiosyncrasies of political and economic Black incorporation into majority white societies are often overlooked. Beyond Slavery: Explorations of Race, Labor, and Citizenship in Postemancipation Societies, argues that what is most neglected is a critique of how the European “Enlightened” bourgeois liberal emancipatory framework relied heavily upon maintaining a capitalist class structure supported by the oppressive system they were supposed to be opposing. By constructing homogeneous yet separated, national identities grounded in the ability to access resources and justified by phenotypic differences, the contradictory framework was doomed to fail. In Eric Foner’s chapter “The Politics of Freedom” in Nothing But Freedom, he writes that throughout the African Diaspora, freedom for enslaved Blacks did not constitute the same political, social, or economic state as the term engenders. What Blacks discovered was that the “liberal” rulers created boundaries that inhibited Blacks’ integration into their respective majority white societies. Those political, social, and economic boundaries included discriminatory notions of how emancipated Blacks would conduct themselves once released from their plantations. As a result, Blacks who were able see their dreams of a large-scale manumission come to fruition, woke up only to find their previous “masters” from the “big house” would remain so in a reformulated government.

Once embarking upon the task of emancipation, rulers of the US and the Caribbean found themselves in a conundrum: How can formerly enslaved peoples be elevated to social, political, and economic equals to their past enslavers in order to stay true to the newly adopted unbiased classical liberal ideology? Free labor and equal citizenship could not co-exist among European/European-Americans and African descendants in a capitalist context where the bourgeoisie were vying for resources and working to maintain social, political, and economic advantages. According to the capitalist system, every man in their respective society had “equal standing before the law, was capable of accumulating goods and resources in unlimited quantity, and was free therefore to maximize his gains so as to satisfy innate materialist appetites.” As a result of unregulated market exchanges of goods and services, social relations are vulnerable to manipulation by avaricious individuals’ whose goal was to hinder others from competing in the market place. In the spirit of increasing productivity via ascendancy, the elite class sought to replicate slavery under the guises of free labor, sharecropping , apprenticeships and colonization creating a class of mostly landless, low-income, disenfranchised Blacks. Integrating freed people failed because European and US global powers built their societies based on a capitalist system where a marginalized class with limited or no power is necessary to sustain said system. The liberal rhetoric sounded nice, just, and in alliance with a democratic society, but to fully embrace classical liberalism in all aspects of society –especially economic –those in power would have to relinquish a substantial portion of that power in order to allow the newly emancipation people to integrate into white-dominated political, economic, and social spheres. “[T]he unstated precondition for this democratic exchange was harmony in the basic purposes and assumptions for the participants, which, in turn, could arise only from the compatibility of each subject’s relation to the whole.” If freed Blacks were to be individuals with “unmediated relationship(s) to the state,” then white representatives of the generational wealth that was acquired by the utilization of exploited labor, would have to willingly excuse themselves from the US economic table of free trade and unmediated access to all things that entail their materialistic pursuit of happiness. If societies are constructed on the bases of an economic free-for-all with little to no mediation from the state and a relaxed set moral principles to guide their economic endeavors, then it seems feasible, if not necessary, for those who feel the need to remain a stakeholder in the society’s political and economic undertakings, to fill or remove the chairs from the table preventing others from accessing resources via de facto or de jure segregation –whichever system negates the most amount of people and gives the seated an advantage.

What appears ironic is that US freed people eagerly wanted to be a part of the very system that created their subjected status. The Lockean notion of a political actor carried with it an “anthropological minimum,” –such as age, gender, race, property ownership, or literacy –that was said to be requirements for citizenship. Locke, who formulated ideas about race during the Enlightenment period which occurred simultaneously with the creation of the liberal universal individual, helped set the stage for contradicting philosophies that could not find a ground upon which to coexist. Instead, the European capitalist construct implemented across the Atlantic and grown out of European nationalism prevailed to the detriment of displaced peoples who resided in the “New World.” In order to spread the wealth, the wealthy would have to sacrifice. Are there capitalists willing to do that? Arguably socialism is synonymous with liberalism. Therefore, if socialism holds a substantial distance from capitalism due to a socialist society implementing equal distribution of wealth amongst its members as opposed to the wealth being concentrated by a few, how could a society built on the concentration of wealth placed on a small portion of the population, implement a complete overhaul of resource distribution that includes the very people they treated as sub-human only days or months prior? In addition, how could the creators of classical liberalism simultaneously invent the concept of racism during the Enlightenment period and not see the inherent paradox?

Although, Blacks did, and still do, highlight the blatant contradictions in the United States’ laws of supposed equality and the limited implementation of those laws (e.g. throughout the Black Liberation struggle), was it the goal of freed Blacks to enter the political sphere in hopes of having a seat at the table or making the liberal rhetoric a reality thus obtaining a fighting chance at access to basic resources such as land and a political voice? In the Caribbean, there was “…mounting anxiety that Black political power in Jamaica might actually be used in Black people’s political and economic interests. From that point forward, colonial officials sought ways to blunt the impact of Black political participation.” Blunting political participation went hand-in-hand with restricting landownership. By inhibiting landownership opportunities for Blacks, that, in turn, limited Blacks ability to generate agricultural products to be place within a free trade system for profit, resulting in Blacks having limited abilities for economic improvement which worked in tandem with castrated political involvement.

What happened in the minds of the European/European-American ruling class that made them believe that Blacks would not want the ability to have entrepreneurial rights and exercise the same methods of freedom as they did? It is not as if many of the European bourgeoisies did not know the intelligence that streamed the continent. In addition, the “failed” emancipatory project and Blacks’ success during the short-lived Reconstruction should have proved that Blacks had the ability and desire to move beyond their forced servile state. What appears to not be explicitly articulated is white fear of losing their seat at the table. Could this be because Enlightenment thinking denounced the blatant expression of fear from the “rational” being who is not suppose fear but rather be feared? This idea of “rational” thought and the suppression of passions or emotions could explain why classical liberalism and capitalism in a discriminatory aristocracy cloaked in democracy could not work. Classical liberalism can only be affective if the contradictions are recognized, understood, and all that suffer from the ills of disenfranchisement are satiated. Maybe there is hope, but clearly the US was, and arguable still is going through a political identity crisis.

Monday, January 26, 2009

I think therefore….: Random thoughts in quasi-Chinese, follow if you can

My mental processes must follow a particular linear thought process if there is any hope in anyone else understanding what I am thinking. The initial phase is what I call "Chinese". It's pretty unintelligible to the average person. So if someone asks me what I am feeling I have a relatively quick conversion from Chinese to English and answer the question or just say "nothing" or "I'm good" (which is virtually never the case.) I wanted to write a blog but it isn't in full English mode, yet not completely Chinese. Hmm, enjoy.

Meat…inanimate

Why leave anyway?

Internally disturbed

Why expect to stay?

See intimacy differently?

Don't know

Think the worst but hope for the best

But thinking and hoping need each other, invest in each other so who gets the most capital?

Who wins?

Both verbs, "doing" words

Why meat? Used. Felt before?

Kevin, J, OD, Ellington, Damon

Create "used" story

Avoider tendency

playing the victim

let's not discount actual feeling, investigate why feel that way

investigate

ask why

keep it moving

prevent stagnation

no rest

always learning

be

learning self assumes there is a pre-established, pre-determined self and the self needs to discover within its self and it needs others to help the self direct attention towards itself in order to find that which is already there to find...in itself. our self. Its all there. just need to find it.

Fear what? Relationships? Rejection? Failure?

Insecure? About what? Me? Him. Whoever.

Mother felt secure? Granny secure? Bad marriages

Prescribed mode of action

If I know I need to know intentions and didn't know his

Think = preparation

Do you ever prepare for hope?

Can you hope and actively fear?

Fear hope or hope for fear

Fear. Excuse to avoid

My horoscope:

Monday, January 26
It may boost your ego when others remark about you, but there will always be a certain amount of criticism. Learn from this criticism if you want to build a meaningful relationship.

"Its interesting that what you feared came to fruition"

"Exactly"

"Yes exactly"

I think therefore I am

Think the worst and hope for the best.

Think hope, prepare for hope fulfilled.

Hope to not fear.

Peace

I am all that I am supposed to be at the time that I am.

Just be.

Used story creation, Defense mechanism

defend? against who? what?

why defend?

barriers prevent access of ban AND GOOD

scared of what?

who has been put on the offense?

who am i fighting?

why fight?

fighting?... protecting.

heart

feelings

self

protect = prevent = prepare for worst

too negative

get and give without boundaries

without fabricated dreams or stories

i think therefore i am

i am my thoughts and I think hope

i think boundlessness

i think love

i think caution with out submission to the unknown

i think i and completely capable of being...

being

satiated

love

care

stop declaring war when there is no battlefield

it's tiring

only one fighting is you

who has fought before?

who should have fought before

wanted to not be like them

prevent replicating their misery

warfare always bring misery

"Its interesting that what you feared came to fruition"

"Exactly"

"Yes exactly"

Not sure how I feel about bubble people.

people who walk around in an enclosed transparent cage.

why do i want to get to know them especially if they don't want to be known?

am i intrigued? i really want to ignore them but somehow i can't. but i want to. but i cant. go away bubble man!




Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Anxiety and Love… or something like that. Men are stupid...Just kidding

Im not sure how I feel right now. Not very good. Uncomfortable. I've felt this before. Like I want to, need to get a whole lot of stuff done but I anticipate it being so overwhelming that I don't want to do it, but so want to do it at the same time. And I also need to do it.


  1. I have sign up for 3 classes this quarter. I just ordered my books. About 20 books total. They come out to be over $500. That's ate a large part of my budget since I only set aside $150. I'm going to look into auditing the English class I signed up for. The topic really fits my thesis but it's a lot of reading.
  2. I took out a student loan in order to pay for my Ghana plane ticket, but I had to pay $400 towards my son's daycare, need to get insurance for my care (which ran out a while ago), I'm want to travel to LA and NYC to visit my potential schools which is going to cost at least $700 and that's with staying with friends, I had to pay almost double my rent, and not to mention the $500 in books. All of this means that it doesn't look like I will be buying my ticket this quarter unless I find some more money somewhere.
  3. I will be starting the high school political arts program in 2 weeks which is the result of 6 months of preparation. I feel like there is much that needs to happen, that needs to be solidified, so that I need to learn, and get together even though I have done so much thus far.
  4. I'm graduating this year and I have a thesis to write. Even though I am maybe farther along that my cohorts in the writing process, I feel like there is so much more to write. (I'm might be making this harder, writing feeling like a lot).
  5. I'm concerned about being accepted in the PhD programs I applied for even though I'm not supposed to be. Everyone is saying I shouldn't be. Plus I'm supposed to…I am leaving it n God's hands, thus I'm not supposed to worry. But I don't feel like I'm "worrying" per se but I am thinking about it… with concern. I think that is probably worry. One reason I really want to visit the schools. But that probably isn't a good idea. I feel like that's me trying to make things happen when it is already determined. Geez. I probably can't go anyway since my money is looking funny.
  6. And, of course, these dumb man troubles. Not that the men are dumb. The troubles are dumb. Someone told me my tire was slashed. I think I might have hit something or my tire brushed against something but I was told it really looks like two knife marks. I think it was "Todd." I don't know anyone else who would do that. Still don't know what I did to him for him to be like this. But again I don't how it happened. I never heard of a ma doing something like this. It like that Jasmine Sullivan song or that Boondocks episode. It's all a tad bit much. I do pray for him. And I do care for him. I just not sure how much of that is pity.
  7. J called me on my birthday. Damn. I saw that I had a missed call and voice mail from an unknown number. The other I was talking to (the one that apparently isn't that into me) calls from an unknown number so I thought it was probably him. I listened to the voice mail and it was J. Damn. I called him back and said, "Why do you keep doing this to me?" He said, "What? Call you?" "Yes!" I said. Then we proceeded to talk until 5am the next morning. In that conversation I discovered that he is still in a relationship that sounds pretty so-so. They broke and then got back together because they said they really didn't have a reason to break up in the first place. And he didn't her that we were intimate while in Toronto. He said, "She knows." But he didn't tell her straight up. I'm not sure why I want him to tell her. Partly because I think that he should but I think mostly because I want them to break up and I want him to choose me. But that sounds like one of those Maury Povich/ Dr. Phil/ Ricki Lake type stories. I can hear the audience member now, "Girl, if her cheated on her with you he is going to cheat on you! Leave that n*gga alone!" And it's true. I think. (Sigh). I do. So he asks me about any relationships I had been in since Toronto and I told him about Todd and the drama. I than asked him why does he always ask me about my relationships. He said so he can see if they are good enough for me since he knows what I like and what I need. He judges them based on him. Well that's with the assumption that he is the right man for me. This is questionable since he isn't with me. That has the potential to be pretty depressing, LOL. Following his logic, the best man for me doesn't want to be with me. That's unfortunate. Anyway, I said "then that means that you are the best man for me. So why aren't you with me?" He paused as if he either never thought about it or had but never came up with a good answer. He said, in so many words, that he doesn't have any room to mess up with me. He would have to be completely monogamous and he knows he is easily tempted by other women. I guess that goes back to Toronto. And since he didn't tell her, it makes me wonder about him cheating on me when we were together. But I'm not going to stress or worry about it. I may never know. But what is concerning me is why do I feel like he is the best man for me given all of this that I know? I am basically asking for a failed relationship. Am I asking to be with a man that I know will cheat on me? Why do I want to be with a man who is unsure about the success of a relationship with me before a serious shot at it? One thing I can say, five plus years ago I would have never gotten such insight into his feelings. That's something I wish for when we were together. So there are a few things I am unclear about: Why doesn't he want to maintain contact with me? He lives in another country and we will almost never see each other so he isn't keeping around for sex or anything. He isn't perusing a relationship with me and I find it hard to believe a man wants to maintain contact with his ex-girlfriend just have another female friend around. And why would he want to do this after I told him how I feel about him? Is this some kind of ego stroking? Some kind of carrot on stick type stuff to get his rocks off? That's not him though. He also mentions, "You know every time we have a fight you end up dating someone right after." That caught me off guard. Never thought about it. Then I did. When we were first in this weird non-labeling stage of our relationship in undergrad (it's a long, weird and confusing story which is also a bit much and sometime I should not have put up with) I got a call from an ex from high school and he wanted to fly to Florida form New York to see me for Valentine's Day. Since I apparently didn't have a man told him sure. Then J came by my house on Valentine 's Day with a flower and candy after I told him not to come over because I had company. I guess he didn't believe me. All I asked was for him to be straight up with me about my status in his life and he never gave me a clear answer and then he wanted to get upset that I had someone else who wanted to spend time with me when he was playing games. We got back into good graces (still not labeled sure left me very insecure because I didn't understand the rules of this weird gray relationship area), then it got rocky again and I started dating a friend of mine. He continued to find his way in my life some kind of way. He would call to ask how I was doing, when I called myself getting over this man who wasn't sure about putting a label on our relationship. I didn't understand why he still wanted to talk to me if he didn't want to be with me because all I wanted to do was be with him. This I was preparing to leave for graduate school and I told him that I didn't want to talk to him anymore. I didn't want to be his friend I want to be his woman and he apparently wasn't ready for that. It was really hard. I cried a lot. I got to Ohio and found myself messing with this (horrible) guy. I knew something had to be wrong because up to that point I dating guys that were their friends or ex's so I knew they cared about me. This guy was SO random I don't know what was going on in my head. Well I discovered that I was with-child. I can't remember who called who first when I reach Ohio, but J and I were talking intermittingly once I got up there. I told him I was pregnant and he was pretty mean about it. AGAIN, I didn't know why he would be upset if he wasn't interested in being with me. If I was just his friend. Anyway he flew up to Ohio to see me. At the point I was about 5 or 6 months pregnant. He took me with him to Michigan while he visited his family. This would have been the second time he took me to meet a part of his family. The other time was when he paid for me to go to Miami and stay with him and his family for a few days over New Year's. My mom invited him to her wedding, which I really didn't want her to do, and of course he showed up. All those stupid feelings came back. Well I found myself all wrapped up in him again. He came to visit me and my son while we were in Florida and he brought my son gifts for his first birthday. But of course he never attempted to solidify a relationship with me. And I decided that I couldn't be in this weird friend state and said I couldn't interact with him and that it was too hard. About a month later, I found myself in a relationship with Clarance. Then after the Toronto fiasco I got involved with Todd. Each time I got involved with a guy it seems to always be about one month after J and I have some kind of eruption. He said I am trying too hard to remove him from my life and he may be right. Ahh!!! This is so stupid. Why doesn't it have to be like this? He asked me what is it about him that makes me want to be with him. And I gave him a list: Goal-oriented, caring, would make an excellent father (watching him take care of his brother and cousin), emotionally strong, responsible (fiscally and in regards to integrity), family oriented, etc. But am I allowing this to overshadow the obvious? If he isn't "that into" me why isn't that enough to make me not "that into" him? If this all had to do with me subconsciously "needing" a man then why isn't this same feeling directed towards anyone? Or other ex's? I remember being soo attached to Kevin (the ex from high school who came from New York to spend Valentine's Day with me) but I got over him pretty quickly. And as much as I love Clarance, his recent actions are making the bond between us weaker and weaker (maybe I'll talk about that later). It not I'm on some "bad boy" type thing or the I want something that I can't have. At least I don't think so, because I really don't want to want him more so because he doesn't want me. At least that is how it appears. He said from the beginning I have been more mature about relationships that him. I guess he is referring to my focus on commitment. I'm not sure what he meant since he never really made that clear. I can't say it's as easy as him deciding to be with me because I'm still unsure about how he operates in a relationship given the one he is in right now. (Sigh). This is all a bit much. More self work to be continued.